Now, don’t fall off your chair or have a heart attack or anything else major. It’s true, your eyes do not deceive you, I am in fact, actually blogging something on my own actual blog. It’s crazy, I know. I suspect at this point, I’m talking to myself, because I’m not sure who would stick around here when I can barely manage a post a month but, if you ARE here, I thank-you immensely for your patience. You patience or your disorganization, which has left you unable to delete this blog from your reader or however else you follow, whichever. The point is, I thank you.

If you wonder what the hell happened to me, I wish I could tell you. Life happened to me, it just did. The latter part of last year was rough. There was looming spousal unemployment, mounting debt, face melting stress, holidays, toddler illnesses (nothing major, just the joy of being a kid), there was a busy job, a house for sale, a bout of poor me-ism. There was the discovery of a blog with a page dedicated to me, and how shitty I am. There were tears and rage and thoughts about how unfair things can sometimes be. There was a lot of fun to be had with my friend and family. There was business and sadness and happiness and goodness and all of the normal things that one goes through in life. Nothing catastrophic, nothing so overwhelming I couldn’t deal with it, just life. I can honestly never figure out how the rest of you manage to blog weekly, let alone daily, when I can’t manage to do it even monthly. I am going to go ahead and assume it has more to do with my inability to write a post of less than 2000 words, and less to do with you all just being more kick-ass than I am.

In any event, I am going to make a more conscious effort to blog around these parts. I built something here and to be honest, it pains me to see it starting to fall apart. I do enjoy blogging, the community aspect, the ability to get out of my own head sometimes, the whole thing. I just get caught up in work and life and then I feel pressure to be amazing and then I can’t do it so I just give up. You must post like this, you have to have pictures, you need to link out, you should be looking for ads….it is dizzying and a bit ridiculous. I’ve been reading my fav bloggers and getting re inspired. I’ve been checking out articles on why people blog, and how to use your blog for your own purposes. I’ve been talking a lot to myself. My conclusion is that I want to keep blogging here, but that I have to change some things about my approach if I hope to survive.

So I’m going to try. I am going to keep being me, all bitchy and opinionated. I am going to tell you how I really feel, even if that makes SOME people run screaming to the PPD police or questioning my sanity (*please know I DO take PPD very seriously and in NO way intend to make that sound like I don’t. I just don’t think every mother who ever has a hard day needs 65 people to tell her she needs medication. Sometimes, things are just tough). I am still going to swear to much and talk about poop, all that will still remain. I am just going to try not to obsess so much over the structure of every sentence. I will go back to blogging how I want and breaking the rules because honestly, I’m not trying to build an empire here. I am going to attempt to stop blogging out 2000 words, even if that’s how much I have to say. I am going to try and just be more present. I hope that with that, it will be easier to accomplish my blogging goals. If it didn’t take me a good 4 hours to crank out one post, I think I would be way ahead of the game.

And if you really still can’t get enough of me? I am ALWAYS over at my other home Liberating Working Moms, where me and 7 other ladies talk working mom life, and are building a community for the likes of us. Even BETTER? I will be attending this years BlogHer ’12 in NEW FREAKING YORK so, you better come and say hello if you’re going to be there too.

And with that, I cut myself off, at just over 750 word…..because that’s better than 2000, right?

Now? I shall insert the obligatory photo that every post must have because why not?

Everly turned 2 while I was MIA!

Tags: Good Times, New Chapters